Reflections

As one year ends and a new one begins, I have been reflecting on what life has taught me over the past twelve months. I've learned that the world continues to be an unsettled and frightening place at times, but that God still gives us glimpses of light in the midst of darkness. I've learned that I am capable of living through another year with the painful thorn of Infertility. I've learned that marriage is hard work, but my husband is more than worth it. I've learned that there are far too many children in this world that are in need of a family and a place to call home. I've learned that 25 dollars can buy a clean water filter for a family in Africa that will last a lifetime. I've learned that I can be very selfish and greedy. I've learned that even though I have a college degree, it does not necessarily mean that I am automatically employable. I've learned that Grad School is really difficult and time consuming, and best left to the uber-intelligent (aka Ronnie). I've learned that I continue to love chocolate. I've learned that my immediate and extended family is one of the biggest blessings of my life. I've learned that there are more important things in life than a clean house. I've learned how to love unconditionally from my foster children. I've learned that parenting is truly the hardest job on the planet and I am not very good at it. I've learned that I really enjoy being called "Mommy." I've learned that the Bible is actually an amazing book to read. I've learned how to truly worship. I've learned that obeying God requires 100% compliance. I've learned that almost every one of my closest friends has become pregnant and/or has had a baby. I've learned that although I am sad for my own barrenness, I can be truly joyful for others. I've learned that fertility treatments are mostly painful and overall unenjoyable. I've learned that time doesn't always heal pain, but it does make is easier to bear. I've learned that surrender is not easy, but it is required. I've learned that it is possible to love my husband more with each passing day. I've learned that I desperately want to be more like Jesus. I've learned that God truly loves me and is FOR me.

As I look back, I am thankful for all that I have learned and look forward to everything that lies ahead. Here's to a happy new year.

-Heather